paranoya!

i was there since she was in my life..
bakit nga ba nakakapraning ang love???
they say its,stoodemanding,possesive,out of control!
that is what happening to me...i'll be dead and my world will be smaller because i'm there...
how could i go out of it??? i wouldn't know... cuz the one whointroduced it to me is not here...
ako lang ang paranoid...it'all in myhead but good thing not in my heart!

UnDeR-PreSSuRe???

People under pressure makes difficult decisions about 20% faster if they stand instead of sit.. such was finding in a university of south california study were respondent alternate sat or stood for 15 mins. periods while making rapid decisions on a computer sreen.

the tougher the task the more standing benifitted everybody. alertness corresponds with erethness in most of the animal kingdom. standing increases our heart rate by about 10 beats per munite, wich stimulates brain areas and make us more alert therefore, take regular work breaks to get up stretch...

Never Ever Show Youre Jealous

O.k., you're standing there all alone at a party and in the far corner of the room your boyfriend is talking to some groovy chick. She's coming onto him and much to your dismay, he doesn't seem to be bragging about all how happy he is in his relationship with you.

In fact, he even seems to be encouraging and indulging the shameless slattern's disgusting, desperate, gall-filled pleas for sexual attention. So you a) burst into tears and run from the room b) go up to him and drape yourself around his neck so she can't miss the fact that you and him are "together" or c) stand there and repeatedly tap his shoulder with your finger going "Um honey, honey, honey, I have to talk to you ... until he finally is forced to turn around and scream in your face "WHAT!"

Actually, none of the above are the right answers. Unfortunately, the minute you display jealousy, you convey neediness and insecurity and according to Jungian psychiatrist William Rock Penfield, people of both sexes find this extremely unattractive in a partner. What they really find attractive is something called "the unattainable." That is why your boyfriend is flirting with the gorgeous interloper in the first place. He knows he belongs to you and therefore she becomes attractive because she is unattainable. Another reason we flip out, and become jealous is because we know we've already been "attained".

The person knows he already "has you" so there is nothing to chase... no thrill to the hunt... the cupid's arrow has already met its mark and now you are about as sexually exciting as a carcass thrown in a burlap sack. No, the best thing for you to do in such a situation, is to mirror his behaviour.

Make yourself unattainable. Replace thoughts like "No, no, no ....please don't do this to me." and " Please, please. Stop. Stop flirting with him!" to "Oh so you think you have this relationship in the bag do you...while here's me brushing my breasts up against your best friend's arm and here's me batting my eyelashes at that guy you hate and here's me smiling and waving at you like nothing's wrong ... nothing at all!" Make like you're the wild unpredicatable one --like what he's doing doesn't matter --like you could leave this party at any minute with his successor.

Before you know it, he'll be the one casting you the anxious looks, as you dirty dance with the cute guy you just met near the fridge. If he doesn't, maybe you should consider leaving the party with the new guy. Or girl.

Because this mirroring trick works on both sexes. What doesn't work is begging, pleading, crying and trying to blackmail the person into never doing it again, later, when you get home in bed. Who wants to be with a needy, whiny jealous person. What a turnoff!

BeyOncE.. in PHILS!

what an experience!

The Fort Open Field, Bonifacio Global City, Phils.- November 07, 2007..

The road to Beyonce experience wasn't easy! travel time, beCoZ of heavy traffic for almost 2 hrs.! me and my friends riding in a cab.... are very excited... halos full battery ang digicam nmin, also the memory of our celphone's.... dapat ay emty pics.! for beyonce.. one in a lifetime lang sya dumating dito sa pinas.. kaya i-eady ang lahat ng gadgets na mag iiwan ng memorabilya ni beyonce!

Thanx to MTV philippines... they provided a map just outside the venue... and we never lost for our seats! and the party get started and beyonce's "crazy in Love".... first one thing... super enjoy talaga starting palang! grabe...halos naka standing ovation na ang lahat ng mga tao at halos di mahuluagan ng karayom.. and all people are shouting Beyonce's name!

start to finish.... Beyonce never stop's the beat of people for dancing, singing, and shouting.... nakakaindak talaga! especially with beyonce's move.... she showed her belly dancing skills sa "beautiful Liar".... next nman nya ang "Naughty Girl".... and na-touch kami ng bestfriend ko sa awiting kinanta ni beyonce na " Me, Myself and I" , galing sa "Dangerously In Love" na album ni beyonce.. and "Listen".. feel ko sya dahil i watched "Dreamgirls".. and medyo nag quiet effect ang mga audience sa mga awiting ito!..

But the intensity never stop! bigla ba nman banatan ni beyonce ng "Baby Boy".... beyonce is very glamorous on stage... lahat ng bawat kilos at sayaw nya... detalyado talaga! napaka professional nyang performer! beyonce also sang "Independent Women", "Say My Name", "Bootylicious", "Soldier" and "Suvivor"... other songsin her concert were "Deja Vu" at ang "Welcome Hollywood"...

and she end up the show by singing her popular "Ireplacable"... talaga namang sumabay na ang lahat ng tao sa pagkanta nito! ang saya talaga ng hinding hindi makakalimutang expirience na ito sa buhay ng lahat ng tao na nakipag sapalaran sa dami at siksikan na mga manonod!

BEYONCE'.... she really gave herself to us!

Britney bitch?

Ummmm, okay. Britney Spears had her comeback, can we write her off now?
Actually, her show was great, in a retro MTV sort of way. I haven't seen lip-syncing and "dancing" that bad since 1988. Don't take my word for it (although you should), watch it for yourself, if you can stomach it. If you squint with one eye it actually looks like she cares. If you close both eyes it looks like she's trying.

in fairness... ok naman yung MTV nyang "gimme more"...but I feel bad for the audience. The other artists have been bending over backwards trying to show public support for Britney,khit n super hirap n sila sa bigat ni britney! and then they had to sit there with that awkward look on their collective face, wondering when the hell Criss Angel was going to saw her in half.

Oh yeah, generally speaking...I have no problem with her weight. Once she shoves it into underwear 3 sizes too small and tells us we should want it, I reserve the right to say, um no thanks.

I am no Britney fan, but come on... aren't there more interesting things to criticize here than her stomach? LIke her total lack of enthusiasm, timing, or ability? Most moms I know would be pretty pleased to look that good in that outfit less than 2 years out from Babyfest.

I WISH my belly looked that good after having 2 kids... what can u say about britney?????

my "stamps"

when i was freshmen in high school, i started collecting stamps from relatives and friends abroad, they keep sending me letters and pictures... so, naiisip ko... kung nakatambak lang ang mga envelopes with stamps, i'll keep it nalang.. and tinanggal ko ang mga stamps and inipon ko lahat, actually,i got almost 50pcs. of stamps, then.. my sister saw my little box na may mga stamps, she told me that she's also collecting stamps... but she decided to give it all to me...(dahil mas carrer ko ang mag ipon!) pang international nga ang mga stamps ng kapatid... bumili ako ng photo album and dun ko nilagay lahat... almost half of page ang nalagyan ko ng mga stamps... pati mga classmates ko binibigyan na din nila ako ng mga stamps because they know that i love collecting stamps and they giving it to me as a souvenir from them.... yung mga galing sa mga friends/classmates, they put a memo so may mga corresponding trade mark na sila sa album ko.. atleast, everytime na i-open ko ang stamps album ko, naalala ko din sila..

we have now e-mails.... eventhough were still have post office to deliver our letters... mas fastest and easier way ang e-mails... kaya... hindi na ako masyadong makapag-collect ng stamps... all i can do is to watch my collections.. when i feel depresed or alone sometime...

between "Life & Beer"

who would have thought, for each pop of the bottle cap is worth 1 surprise of experience.

for the beer that flows out, is like life's smoothest and roughest ride...

for each beer you gulp, is worth 1 risk u take....

for each invite to drink w/ friends & you give up, is like life's chances that you let it slip out of your way...

this does'nt literally mean that you have to drink beer to enjoy life!

drinking beer is like a risk.... "no risk" more regrets....... so dont think twice...

just pop and drink it... lets get it on.....

...suade...

current line-up:

Brett Anderson (vocals), Richard Oakes (guitar), Mat Osman (bass), Simon Gilbert (drums) & Neil Codling (keyboards).

Suede is my all time favourite band. They were said to be the first of Brit-Pop.

I knew them in 1997 when I heard 'Beautiful Ones' & 'Saturday Night' on the radio.

They were the first band who introduced me to the music world. The best album from them is "Dog Man Star" which is quite a depressing album.

The Best songs from Suede to me are: "The Asphalt World", "Stay Together", "Europe is Our Playground", "The Drowners", "Animal Nitrate", "Killing of the Flashboy", "He`s Dead", "Saturday Night", "Everything Will Flow", "Asbestos" and " Leaving".

Actually, I love all songs by Suede and its just too hard to choose, the list goes on and on...

but where are they now????......

my tattoo's

...im "sHeRyL" i love tattoo's....

when i have my very 1st time tattoo, when i was in 4rth year high school.... i was young and i dont have any idea in tattoo.. actually.. my classmate was the real wanted to have tattoo.. and i am watching her.. and i just think and curious how much pain i can get in a needle from tattoo...
unfortunately.. its in my left higher back.. and after (2003) i did a laser tattoo erasure with it!

i got hitched by my friend to a tattoo sessions somewhere in greenhills... some of them are professionals.. and high paid artist... but i was so amazed... almost all gals are having a tattoo session for thier body... and i got this tiny but a big hello to the capitalized letter... compare to them.... hehehheheehheehe... mybe i will have another tattoo on this one! (2006)

i have this tattoo in my college day.. (1997).. mmmmm.. it will needed a renovation.......

...............this is my right B*tt tattoo...........

(2006)

...bonding time...

This bonding time was about to happened at punchline comedy bar in Timog q.c..

(right - left) "whelfy" my dear best friend in kuwait until here in phils.., "Vice ganda" the comedian host.., "SiR Louie" our beloved owner/manager "b4" (a long century happened when i felt asleep..) and this is was his idea.., and "me".., your's trully... "sHeRyL" at ur service..

its a great time for me to have this guys to be with again..

this guys never leave me when the time of our dissaster moment in kuwait... even though they are not my relative, the're been true to me... as a real brother and a sister....

.....thnx guys........

is your soulmate an idiot?

I think people are investing too much energy in the idea that they "must find their soulmate." Where do we get this idea that we are somehow not complete unless we are connected to another person? What are you? An electrical outlet waiting for a plug, so you can finally light up the world? Frankly, when I hear the word "soulmate" I tend to give a little shudder, especially when I think about some of the people in my past that I have considered to be my soulmates. Quite frankly, most of my soulmates were idiots! The Buddha would say that they were also my teachers -- people I have known in a previous life time who have come back in this lifetime to teach me a lesson. Boy did they, but unfortunately, it sometimes takes several soul mates to teach us just one lesson. (Hint, hint -- I think the lesson is supposed to be about "letting go" and stop trying to control, or own people -- a common problem in this society.) Most people think that they have found their soulmate just because they feel a strong connection to a person. Unfortunately, that connection may not have anything to do with spirituality at all. It is amazing how lust can convince us that we are spiritually connected to a person. The person may just seem familiar, because they remind you of an ex boyfriend, a parent, or even someone who molested you as a child. I also hate the way the term soulmate is often used by people as an excuse to stay in a relationship where they are clearly being abused ...half the time the abuser is using the concept of the soulmate as blackmail: "but you have to take this crap from me! You're beholden to me. I knew you in another life!" You can tell your soulmate is an idiot, if he left you eight months ago and you feel like he is still hanging around in your aura, or even worse, visiting you in dreams, or plaguing you with unwanted thoughts like "this was really all your fault, you know." Time to evict this tenant from your cosmic field. When it comes to soulmates, I subscribe to Oprah's theory "that everybody is your soul mate." In theory, you don't have to have sex with every soul mate you meet -- a soul mate can also be a child, a relative, a co-worker or even just a good friend. One of the hazards of getting involved sexually and emotionally with someone who we believe was sent to us by God, or who we think was sent to us as "an angel on earth" is that we often become over attached to them and have trouble severing the connection. Notice how anyone you've gotten rid off doesn't qualify as a soulmate... but anyone who dumped you automatically ALWAYS makes the grade ... ironically, you hear most people describe the last person who dumped them as their one and only soulmate. If they were such a great soulmate, then why didn't they stick around to build a future with you? Oh right, your soulmate was an idiot, too. It's O.K. to admit your soulmate is an idiot, by the way. It makes the angels laugh ... Forget meditation. There's nothing that dissolves bad karma faster than a bit of humour.